Wednesday, September 21, 2011

adria

It's a bit of a bummer that we had to rush home from Disney to head back into the oncologists office today.  I can't believe that just yesterday we were enjoying the sunshine and laughter of Orlando! 

Dr C seemed pleased with my progress -- some much appreciated good news!  While I've lost nearly 10 pounds in the past two months, my weight has stabilized.  This was good to hear as my appetite hasn't been very big and we've been worrying about how much I am eating.  Dr C said not to force it too much though... my swollen liver is putting pressure on my stomach, which explains why I am getting full so quickly when eating. 

That being said, the swelling does seem to be diminishing.  Dr C was able to do a fairly thorough manual exam and he was pleased with the size and the reduction in tenderness in my liver.  It all suggests that the adriamycin is doing it's job and reigning in these pesky liver tumors.  In fact, after another dose of adria next week, I may even get a week off from chemo, which would be a great break for my worn down body.


Tuesday, September 20, 2011

make a wish...

Thanks to Mike for keeping you all updated over the past few weeks as I struggled to acclimate to a new chemo, new pains and new pain management drugs.  It has been quite a ride... and thankfully, things are starting to settle down a bit.

My body seems to have adapted well to the daily dose of OxyContin ER and it seems to be working well to control the pain.  The only time I really feel the pain is when Marley gets ready to snuggle in for a nap and he steps on my gut ("making muffins")... but he's just so darn snuggly and cute, it's hard to be mad at him for it!

After much debate, Mike and I had finally come to terms with the fact that joining the Scott's for their vacation in Orlando just wasn't practical for us at this point.  However, at the last minute, we changed our minds -- buying tickets two days in advance and flying down to Orlando to join them at the Magic Kingdom.

I struggled a little bit with our flight down, feeling claustrophobic and nauseous on the plane... but after getting out into the fresh air, getting a bite to eat, and then taking a 3 hour nap at our hotel, I was feeling much better!  We went over to the house that the Scott's were renting and enjoyed some pool time with Char, Jeremy & Regan, Sandy, Dave & Jeremy, Kathy & Ginny. 

We got an early start the next day, arriving at Magic Kingdom just before opening.  The park truly is magical, seen through the eyes of 3-1/2-year-old Regan and 2-year-old Jeremy.  The characters, the rides, the music, friends, family... it was an incredible, magical vibe of love and laughter.  We took a mid-day break and headed home for naps (much needed) and then re-assembled at the park for the evening.  Parades, fireworks... we did it all! 

On Tuesday, we spent the morning at Hollywood Studios before heading back to the airport and back to NJ.  Our entire trip was just over 48 hours long, but it was worth every minute...

For as Jiminy Cricket says... "when you make a wish... and hold it deep in your heart... it just might come true."  We made many wishes over the course of those 2 1/2 days.   For good health... for healing... and for a lifetime of childlike love and laughter for all those who shared this experience with us.

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you

If your heart is in your dream
No request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing
Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true








Thursday, September 15, 2011

Doing much better…

From Mike:
Things have improved considerably since Saturday:
  • Pain: thanks to the continued pain meds, the pain has been steady and only about a 2-out-of-10 (a big improvement over last week). We may still tweak the Oxycontin dosage once there are a few “normal” days in a row to get a better baseline. (The meds are working well enough that Linda wondered today how she’ll know when the pain (without meds) is gone. We’re in no rush to figure that out, though!)
  • Nausea (from pain meds): hasn’t really been a problem. Seems to have only been an issue with the initial doses of Oxycontin, but now her body seems to have gotten used to it. Appetite is closer to normal. (See below for nausea due to chemo.)
  • Fevers: also seem to have gone away.
  • Mental haze: (from painkillers) is also much better, with her thoughts and words and energy being much closer to normal now. She does still occasionally struggle to think of a word, and the limited typing that she does is a bit of a struggle (hand/eye coordination issues), but hopefully those minor problems will improve with time as her body gets used to the narcotics.
  • Sleep: seems back to normal, with 8 or 9 continuous hours through the night plus a short nap or two during the day. She does pass through a short narcotic/hallucinogenic dreamworld as she falls asleep at night (Ativan on top of Oxycontin), but hopefully this will stop as meds/pain/etc equilibrate over the coming week or so.
Linda had visits from Char and Regan on Saturday and Sunday, which always lifts spirits around here.

Monday was Linda’s first trip out of the house in many days. Linda’s MUGA scan (Monday afternoon) showed no abnormalities in heart function (as expected), so Adriamycin will continue to be the “flavor of the month” in battling the cancer. We celebrated the news with a short walk through Bed Bath & Beyond on the way home.

Unfortunately, this cancer isn’t taking any breaks, so neither is Linda! A couple days of feeling much better and even getting out of the house were rewarded with… that’s right: straight back to the hospital for chemo day #2 with Adriamycin on Tuesday. Since the side/breathing pain is more under control now, we’re getting a better idea of the side effects from the Adria this week. It seems to be better news: the side effects are not as harsh as Ixempra (the chemo from a month ago), although also nowhere near as "easy" as Abraxane (the chemo from a year ago). Linda seems a little fatigued and a has some lingering nausea (enough to slightly lower her appetite, but she’s still eating pretty well and not vomiting).

Perhaps the best sign of her progress is that we’re planning a bit of a trip this weekend (based on a last-minute desire from Linda). More details on that later (hopefully a blog post from Linda). But we’re approaching this trip with much excitement, along with some adjusted expectations and plenty of realistic planning to make sure we aren’t overdoing it. We hope you also have a great weekend!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

A long week

From Mike: Long-time reader, first-time poster. I've been given the green light to write posts from time to time on the blog. Sorry for the length of my first post, but a lot has happened in the last week.
"Executive summary": Linda has been switched to a different chemo drug (once-a-week) because the Aug 30 CT scan showed continuing growth of tumors. Also, Linda has been experiencing significant pain with breathing, though that is now being managed by pills (narcotic analgesics).

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September 6 (Tues) was scheduled as a chemo day, and we were also expecting to hear the results of the CT scan done the previous week. In the middle of the night before chemo, Linda was woken by sharp stabbing pains on the front-left side of her body, just under the ribcage. The pain gets worse with the deepness of her breathing, so it was just not possible for Linda to take any deep breaths without being in agonizing pain (or any breaths without much pain, for that matter). The pain was quite excruciating by the time we had to leave for the hospital.

Linda had experienced a similar pain before, during winter/early spring of 2010, happening a few times and lasting for several hours at a time. Unfortunately, we didn't make a connection to the cancer at the time. The pain then (right-back side, at lower lungs) was very bad, but the pain now is even worse. Two episodes stand out from 2010: the first time she ever felt the pain was right after Christmas toward the end of our drive down to Myrtle Beach and we had to pull over because the pain was so bad. It’s difficult to see a loved one in so much pain, but not be able to do much about it (aside from trying to massage, or running to the store to get medicine or hot pads/ice packs/etc ). Another bad episode found us in Lancaster visiting with Linda’s family. The pain came on quite suddenly on a Saturday night, with Linda in tears from the pain. Over-the-counter meds were little help, and Linda spent a few hours trying to sleep, moving back and forth from bed to floor, moving pillows around, trying every position she could think of to make the pain manageable. No success after several hours, so Linda took some percocets that Tricia happened to have and we left for home at around 4am.

Back to the present, Linda took a couple of Advil and we were on our way to the hospital. When we spoke with Dr. Cairoli, his top two suspects for the source of the pain were either a blood clot (pulmonary embolism, PE), or the cancer itself (the tumors having grown enough that the swollen liver is putting enough pressure on the diaphragm to cause this pain associated with breathing). Dr. C prescribed Oxycodone for the pain (pills every 3 hrs), and we were to call back Thursday morning if the pain was still there so he could get Linda in for another CT scan of her lungs to rule out a PE.

The other topic of discussion with Dr. C was results from the preceding week’s liver CT scans. The results were not encouraging, though not unexpected: tumors in the liver have continued to grow, meaning the Ixempra/Avastin was having little or no effect on the cancer. (I say “not unexpected” because over the last month Linda has had a pain around her liver and swelling in that area. The pain is not on the same level as this newer breathing pain; rather it hurts
when the area is touched, or when she leans back, etc.) So, a change in chemo drugs is necessary. Dr. C has decided to go back to Adriamycin, the “Red Devil” that was part of Linda’s treatment back in 2005. He feels this is the “biggest gun” in the arsenal, and best chance at getting this thing back under control.

Linda will go in for a MUGA scan on Monday to measure how her heart is working now. One of the side effects of Adriamycin is damage to the heart, so there is a maximum total dosage that a person can get over their lifetime (assuming there isn’t any ventricular damage before that). So this MUGA scan serves as a baseline (along with 2005’s MUGA) and we will monitor heart function as we go along with the Adriamycin.

The good news is that the Adriamycin treatments are much shorter: 30-45 minutes of premeds (steroids, anti-nausea) followed by an Adriamycin infusion that lasts only a minute (manually injected with syringe rather than via drip). We were in and out of the hospital in about three hours. The bad news is that the treatments will be weekly, and for now there will be no “off weeks” planned so that we can be as aggressive as possible in fighting these tumors.

We picked up the Oxy on the way home and Linda settled in for the next few days. The nurses expected the fatigue/nausea side effects from the Adriamycin to not be too bad, although it was tough to tell due to the breathing pain and associated Oxy meds. It was a long couple of days— Linda was mostly just in the recliner or bed, dealing with the narcotic effects (in quite a haze for much of the time) and the pain (which was not quite as bad with the Oxy, but still present). I don’t think Linda (or myself, by transitivity) slept longer than a couple of hours at a time from Tuesday through Saturday night. Her appetite was also not good, so it was difficult to get many calories in her.

We let Dr. C know on Thursday morning that the pain had not gone away. They set up a CT scan of the lungs for early afternoon (requiring a 4-hr fast, adding further difficulty to the caloric intake). The results of the scans came in immediately: no PE. This news was bittersweet: great that there’s no PE, but bad since this means that the cancer has grown enough to be causing a lot of pain, and this is a pain that won’t go away on its own. The hope now is that the new chemo will work and shrink the tumors enough to relieve the pain. It’s tough to see positives in the situation, but one nice point is that we now have a very clear indicator of whether this new chemo regimen is working: if the pain goes away, then we know it’s working.

Knowing that there is no PE, Dr. C changed Linda’s pain med prescription to Oxycontin, a similar drug, but with extended release (one pill every 12 hours) which means Linda should have much longer periods with lower pain levels. It might take a while to dial in the right dosage (balance between the pain and the narcotic effects on the mind), and in the meantime Linda will be supplementing the 12-hr pills with the 3-hr pills, as needed.

Thursday night we had a new scare. I had been taking Linda’s temperature at random times, just to make sure she didn’t develop a fever. (Fevers can be dangerous for chemo patients due to their compromised immune system, so fevers over 100.5 can mean a trip to the emergency room to figure out what the problem is and to get things (possible infections?) under control.) Linda’s temperature had been fine the last several weeks, but Thursday night she was running a
fever of 101.5 to 102. After making sure that it wasn’t a fluky measurement, we called the Dr’s office and talked to Doctor Lee, who was on call (around 11pm). He wasn’t too concerned due to the absence of other symptoms (no chills or shaking, etc.). Dr Lee prescribed Levoquin, an antibiotic (no ER trip necessary). I ran out to the drug store to pick up the Rx and by 2am Linda’s temperature was down to 100 and then back to normal the following morning.

I talked to Dr. C briefly the following day about the fever (while I was in to pick up the Rx for oxycontin). He wasn’t convinced that the drop in temperature was related to the Levoquin, and said that tumors can cause fevers like this (paraneoplastic fevers rather than neutropenic). So Linda is back off the Levoquin, and we’ll just continue to monitor her temperature.

Linda had some vomiting problems Friday night and Saturday, probably due to her body adjusting to new pain meds and different dosages. Good news is that the pain level on Saturday was much better than the previous days—after days of pain at a level of 8-out-of-10 (comparable to the worst pains after big surgeries) and occasional incoherent thoughts and speaking, Linda was down to a pain level of 4 or 5 and having much more normal conversations. Unfortunately, she wasn’t able to keep any food down during the day.

After sleeping off and on Saturday during the day, Linda finally started to get her appetite back late in the evening. She ate a little bit of banana and Ensure and kept it all down! We finally went to bed at 2am (our schedules are very off at the moment!), and were very pleasantly surprised to wake up at 8:30—both of us sleeping continuously for the longest stretch of time since 6 days earlier. Hopefully as the oxy dosage gets tweaked and Linda’s body gets used to
the meds, we’ll see lots of good sleep in the coming days and a return to a normal appetite. And in the bigger picture, we keep our fingers crossed that this revisit to the Adriamycin chemo will start working ASAP so that these pains will go away.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Family time

Even when I am feeling sick and tired and down (perhaps especially when I feel that way?) it means so much to receive visits from dear, kind friends. This weekend we enjoyed two special visits: (1) Mike's Aunt Joan & Hugh (2) My cousin Donna and her girls... and of course, we can't forget the more common (but still special) visits from mom and dad, char, jer and ginny!

Aunt Joan and Hugh
Aunt Joan and Hugh live in Winter Haven, Florida. Hugh is from Schenctedy, NY and as part of their summer vacation in the northeast, they had made plans to stop by and visit with us. We had a great time showing them around our house and yard, sitting on the back deck and just catching up. They treated us to lovely dinner at Pietro's (quickly becoming a go-to restaurant spot for us.. this is where we took the Vogels during their visit!) and we then spent a little more time at their hotel with them. It was really nice hearing their stories and just getting to know them both better (I've really only met them on a few occasions, so this was a special treat for me). Thanks for taking the time and for investing the effort and for treating us for dinner -- we really enjoyed the day with you both!

Donna and the girls
My parents had been watching Donna's girls while Donna was working and given our busy schedule and my treatment coming up, we were not able to make it out to Lancaster to visit. SO... My mom and dad brought the party to us! They arrived Sunday evening, in time to enjoy a BBQ dinner with Charlene, Ginny and Regan. The girls took to Regan very quickly and we all enjoyed watching them play with the dolls, hiking to the playground, and, of course, choreographing and performing songs and dances! They had so much fun on Sunday, Char and Jeremy had to bring Regan back on Monday to see "the girls" for a bit more play time!